12:34 PM
So now you know my big secret.
I'm Sorry for not telling you
It's really not something i am proud of at all
Finally my past has caught up with me
i do not know what to do anymore
can you accept me for who i am?
can you see past my past
and see true meaning in what is gonna come?
i prayer that you can.
for my past has taught me a lesson.
a lesson at a very big expense
and it's a lesson i nvr forget
a lesson so simple yet deadly if never learnt
That nothing should revolve ard "IT"
IT has killed me
Ripped my soul into a million pieces
leaving me stranded by myself to slowly pull myself together again
limb by limb till i once again am whole
and doing so i have lost part of my limbs
but gained an additional limb emotionally
a strength not of the physical but of the emotional
a mental strength so strong
I now stand firm cause of that lesson
a lesson taught to me through a mistake
and i nvr would commit that mistake again
a deadly mistake that could never be repeated
a deadly mistake that eats your soul
a deadly mistake that i'll never repeat
for God saved me once
and i believe it will ever happen again he'll save me again
but that might be too late for i can't afford to ever fall again
for the next time my soul falls i do not know
how deep the pit will be.
it might just go into the abyss of time
and never resurface.
Life is to precious to fool anymore
i'm no longer like how i used to be
I wanna take my final chance with you.
will you let me have that chance?
If i could break every clock and stop time here
with you i will.
I'm sorry for putting you in such a spot.
I should've said this right from the start
but i still love you the same.
i hope you can accept me.
God I'm sorry for ever disregarding what you gave to me
I pray God that you'll give me the strenght and courage and discipline to face
any future problems. Thank you God.... ILU
written, poetic_tragedy